I’m gonna be real with this one seeing as how it’s my first blog in quite a while and I’m finding it hard to be poetic……my brain is officially melted.

My mother just came to visit us for a few days. While she was here there was this mad rush of energy to finish classes, prep for Aidan’s first B-day party (which I am thrilled went well, but also relieved about it being over….), and to make sure we could successfully squeeze 6 months or so of lost family time into a matter of 4 days.

It’s rough. It’s rough because I miss her like crazy. It’s rough because no one understands me like she does. And I’ll tell you a little secret, I REALLY can’t stand people in general. As a matter of fact, it seems most everyone I’ve ever known at some point has had the tendency to drive me up the wall, but not her. Who knows, maybe if we lived closer to each other it would be different. Either way, I still miss her, and it makes me nuts that she can’t be here all the time to see Aidan grow up.

So because of this and everything else that had to go down while she was in town, I got very little sleep over the course of about 5 days. We always seem to be rushing when she’s here, and her visits always seem to be over before they’ve started. I was a mad-woman over everything being perfect for Aidan’s party, and yet just as she assured me it would, the thing came and went and because of my UN-warranted adrenaline level, I almost feel as though I missed it. And I know for a fact I missed out on FAR too many picture opportunities. =(

Still, glancing over at that kid as he was being led around the party by various caring hands, that little blue balloon floating up from his wrist, that warming grin on his face……I was at peace. He loved it! I was worried about his ability to handle all of that “action” because he spends most of his time at home with mama and daddy, but he did really well! He was a little social butterfly even!

Anyway, school is almost over this semester, which has actually been tougher than it was when I had a baby in my belly a year ago, and I haven’t even had a job this semester! It’s unreal. I think it has everything to do with my priorities being all mixed up right now. I just hope I don’t get so busy trying to finish school and job searching and creating memories for our little family that I wake up one day and don’t remember them happening. Ughhh…..life can SURE be tricky sometimes, and yet oh so good. =)